Today's Devotion Joshua 1:6-9

So continue from yesterday, as I will do it daily. In each day, there will be 3 questions to be chosen, but it's not necessary to answer all of them, so I choose which one I have encountered with God ^_^

Reflect on the authority God has placed upon your life and how you 're using that authority to bless those around you?

During LG prayer meet last week, I felt that GOD wants me to pray for my LG, but at that time I felt discouraged, I tried to gather my courage to speak out and I keep praying in Spirit, but in the end, I still discouraged. Yet, I believe GOD never leave me, He never forsaken me. GOD I pray that if the next chance coming up, give me courage and strength to pray out loud for my LG and be a blessing for my LG. Thank you GOD ^_^

Just now I mentioned GOD never leave me correct? Today, I encountered another powerful event with GOD in my office. Today is my review, err nothing related with salary, I prefer to know what my progress so far after last review, so here is the review. My boss was very patience with me, he explained what feedback he has received from my other colleagues, it's about my social skill, my technical skill, he quite assured that although there are still some rooms for improvement, but my technical skill is better than last year.

So back to my social skill, if you know me, perhaps you will say that I'm not very talkative person, Sugix is nice, Sugix is very spiritied, etc, but I tell you, in office, what you will is not me, but another me. In office, I'm easily agitated in communication, thus almost all of the time I made a hole in other person and I don't like to answer query from my colleagues including my PM. Surprised isn't it? Well, but my colleagues do feedback to my boss that outside work, Sugi is nice person, just when in working environment, Sugi become another person, difficult to approach, its like you step in my area, then prepare to get shot :)

So which one is the real Sugix? The one that you see every LG (3 hours) + service (3 hours) + activity (6hours), compare with my working state which is 40 hours/week.. hahahaha

To be honest, actually I'm aware about it, but you might ask me then why you still doing it? I don't have answer for that also, I did tried to control my emotion but no matter how hard I tried, there will be an outrage. But today is special, I don't know, it's like GOD use my boss to specially talk to me, soon after the review, I suddenly changed, I become more patience, I could explain more to my colleagues, normally I will shout bla bla bla. Another mystery also happen, my PM asks me to change code, normally I will shout "hah? why change again? that one is difficult, it won't be finish by today" (with irrating face), but today I was listening to my PM explanation, and do it without any COMPLAINT, wow that was a miracle.

Another feedback from my boss is to reduce to open facebook, and those similar to that one. Actually I kind not addicted to it, but it's I the one who choose to open it. I pray that God will empower me with Spirit of self-control, so I be better person in office and be a guidance for my juniors ^_^

Otw to my home, I asked God, am I capable to switch my working state with the real me that nice person, GOD says as long as you hold on My Way, you should be able. Back then during interview, my boss asked me, are able to change your working state, I answered hmm slowly. But in the end, GOD is the one who switched my working state ^_^ Praise God.

It seems I have surrendered my technical skill to God long time ago, but I still hold my social skill in office with my way, not with God's Way. I pray that God will empower with the Spirit of love & patience so I can build better relationship with my colleagues.

Galatian 5:22-23
But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law.

God Bless

Today's Devotion 28 Mar 2012 (Joshua 1:1-5)

As our LG started to read Connect today, I want to share with you, readers, about it.


There is an interesting question, "how do you overcome the overwhelming feelings that sometimes come when going on a mission trip?"

Back then in 2010, when I was a new believer to join Cambodia Mission Trip, I feel hesitated on myself for the first time, partly that I eager to join mission trip but the another me was no confident to go, some more I know nothing about Mission Trip. But in the end, I decided to go, why? Don't know I just do it rather than worrying. So even for now, sometimes I still hesitated about task being assigned by God, even small task, let say this morning, I saw a man, asking direction where to go Tanjong Pagar Complex, he is asking the person in front of me, well I happen heard what he had asked and know where it is, but the funny thing is, instead of helping him, I began to think should I tell him or leave him alone? But deep inside my heart, I know I should tell him, so I just do it.

So if I wonder whether I should do or not, but in fact i know that it's the right thing to do, I will do it ^_^

Matthew 6:33

33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.

God Bless

Pause Moment

Today was very long day for me haha..

Starting from lunch, I planned to buy Diablo III preorder card for my colleague, but it turned out it was raining at Bugis at that time, during lunch time >_< too bad, no choice have to back to office.

Then we have deployment around 7pm, woo the migration wasn't a success at the first time, I never encounter this kind of error. Tried anything but no result, then we restored the database. After that, began fixing there and there, until 11pm, I said to my PM, "I'm going home, this area by rights not me to fix".

On my way to Tanjong Pagar MRT, i started to think what should I do, should I continue work from home? or just leave it there for tomorrow morning? Small section in my heart says that I should fix it, and yeah its won haha, so instead of taking MRT, i took cab.

Then I somehow encountered very relaxing moment, I sat down inside the cab, listening a music (see below), looking to outside, though most of them were a building, then somehow I was enjoying it. While looking to outside, I began to smile, all the fatigues due to the stress from work are gone.

So here I am, finished fixing the bugs and going to sleep hehe. Nitez readers ^_^

Here is the song that I listening currently, my favorite song from Material Queen.

(Actually I didn't really know what the meaning of the song, i just go with the flow of this song haha, kind like it ^_^)

God Bless.

Serving is a privilege

Back then, when I was asked to be an usher, 2 years ago, I was kind of disappointed, to be honest, I didn't like usher before. I was more interested in drum, yet I keep doing it haha, strange isn't it ^_^

Now, I'm enjoying serving in as an usher, for me, to greet people at the door and be a door opener are the most enjoyable moment during serving in God Kingdom. I want to give Joy for the people who spend their time to come to hear God Words ^_^

During today's worship, God shows me an image, it's a very big white castle, with people coming in, and there are some waiter & waitress serving the guests. Ushering also like that, usher open the door, serve God people as usher serving in God Kingdom, and be a blessed for those come to God Kingdom.

And doesn't matter what position I'm when serving in God Kingdom, it's all the same in God's Eyes, what He wants to look is my heart during serving, not what position I'm in ^_^ Praise God.

Money isn't everything

I got the title from a movie that i just watched 2 hours ago and feeling to share what i have in mind regarding my PR and stuff.

Well.. i start with the problem first, which is my company doesn't want to pay my CPF portion, instead, it will deduct from my salary on behalf of company. It's my company policy that paying CPF is another cost for company. And all my colleagues, who are PR, also receive the same treatment. Some my friends feel this situation is strange, some tells me to find new job, but in the end I decided not to take PR and stay with EP.

Why? The very first reason is why I should apply PR?

Some saying to easier find a job, but isn't it God who will provide me with the job, not the PR? And I believe that this job was provided by God for me. Let me share my working experience, during my first year working in this company, I admitted that I was struggled with the salary, all I do was to work so that I can get higher increment later on, and my mind was full with it. In the end, my project was a messed up, every thing I did always produce another bug, I remember that time my shepherd encouraged me that it's normal, it's always like that. But deep inside my heart, it felt that it is my fault that caused the 8months project failed. Yet, I didn't give up, nor God ^_^

Starting new year, I got new project, which is even bigger than my previous project, God's way always different from what we thought haha, but this new project I asked God to help me to get through with it. At the end, I successfully to LIVE the website, praise GOD ^_^

My current salary is blessing from God, my bonus is also blessing from God ^_^ so I don't bother with it nowadays, if God wants to give me more, I accept and I will give more back to God as well :) I might not have a lot of money than the others, but I do have FAITH in HIM, I could live without my current job, but I'm not sure whether I can live without HIM taking care for me.

And I already comfy with my current job, I don't have to worry about what if bla bla bla, In fact, I'm now don't even have worry at all for my job, I surrender it to God alone to decide for me ^_^ at the end of the day, I won't worry about what should I do tomorrow in office, but instead I'm worrying what I can do more to glorify HIS kingdom.

Psalm 62:5-8

⁵ Yes, my soul, find rest in God;
   my hope comes from him.
⁶ Truly he is my rock and my salvation;
   he is my fortress, I will not be shaken.
⁷ My salvation and my honor depend on God^[a];
   he is my mighty rock, my refuge.
⁸ Trust in him at all times, you people;
   pour out your hearts to him,
   for God is our refuge.

God Bless

Still

I'm on FIRE now haha, excited for our EASTER CAMP. Yes O Lord, I believe that there will be some converts and some brothers-sisters who will make serious commitment to walk with You, Jesus, through water bapt ^_^ Praise God.

There is this song happen when I searched for yesterday worship songs, Still. Let me share a testimony about this song ^_^ I remembered the first time I sang this song was around December 2009. Back then, I were with CG Adonai 1, Ufong is the CL. It was on Wednesday, It was happen on Pei Jia's home, back then it's at 91 Lorong 4 Toa Payoh #12-05 (perhaps the unit number might wrong). I had to OT due to the my project deadline, but what surprised me, all my CG members were waiting for me before start CG. Then we sang this song, and until now the memories are still here in my brain and heart ^_^

What I want to share is, there are a lot of precious moments for me and God only, its strengthen my inner side of the deep of my heart.

God Bless

Genting Trip 9-11 April 2012

Here is my Genting Trip, not much activity though but the most memorable would be boardgame session haha, we played and laughed until 3AM each day haha. This although common activity, but it's very rare opportunity to have fun playing boardgame with my colleagues :D time is precious, either you spend it to see new things or build bonding with just simple activity ^_^

The travelling time very very long, we set off around 7AM from Golden Mile (near Nicole Highway MRT), bla bla to make it short, we arrived at Genting around 3.30PM, wow haha then waiting for check-in, then we have buffet dinner, cost each of us RM58. During this dinner, I used my tablet to play chess against my colleagues haha, well it turned out that my tablet is more useful than I think ^_^

Photos of female colleagues during waiting for check-in. From left, May - Finance, Leah - QA, Anna - Web Support, Angelia - PM, Shuqin - Designer

Well after dinner, time to do the working haha yes, you heard me correct, although it supposed to be holiday trip, but my daily monitoring still continue, together with my engineer. My PM rent a modem for us to connect to production server. In the end, my module doesn't work as expected, so i have to modify on the spot to blast 3k emails, otherwise my boss will hunt us if there is no blasting. At this time, i don't have any idea what's wrong with my code, it works though in our office server.

The second day, breakfast buffet, this one is part of the package, we got 2 breakfast buffet ticket, as always. Breakfast... what i ate only sausage hahaha too bad i didn't take any photo >_< oh well, after breakfast, i went back to my room to take shower, then I was left behind with my colleagues, aww too bad, ok lah, then I spent time walking around the plaza, looking for chocolate that my brother asked me to buy. I also played the archery, RM9 for 12 arrows, not real arrows though, but the bow is almost real, heavy, the first couple shots you will not feel the weight, but starts from 7th shots, you will feel how heavy it is as the fatigue is coming, and somehow I cannot aim correctly -_- dunno what's wrong.

Second day evening, we have bowling session with my colleagues, ordinary bowling session, just the second game was happen after 6PM, so they turned off the light, only left with the LED around the pin, and dim lights surround us. I did try some techniques (from Bowling King, manga) haha, but didn't work, too much pressure in my arm, and it's the first time i threw the ball outside the ring haha, very high (due to the impact that I tried to use high back swing). After bowling, again another buffet, paid by company, HOTSPOT haha, not much variety though, just enjoying the food.

Oh here i encounter another powerful session with God, when I took night shower, God spoke to me about the error that happen in my module, and at once I realized "oh yeah, that's true", i even didn't debug my code, but suddenly the solution is come out in my head, how? Of course, it was God who gave me the solution ^_^

Here the photo of all male colleagues before dinner, from the left, 2 PM, Benny - Francis, Roger - Developer, Mark - Engineer, Rajesh - Developer, Bjay - Engineer and his son, Aung - Thein - William - Developer. 

Third day breakfast, i also ate sausages haha, here is the photo :p

Another photo before we left Genting :D

So that's the story haha, we arrived back at Golden Mile around 7.30PM. When I arrived back at my home, I connected to production server, and true enough what God has said during the second day night shower is what happening on my module. In fact, this whole system might be developed by me, but again it was God who guided me so that I managed to LIVE this whole website ^_^ Praise God.

God Bless ^_^

I Go Mission

Today (13/03/2012) i joined "I Go Mission" at Textile Connect 806. It started with worship session then little discussion with small group, discussing about what do you think about Chapter 5. What.. Chapter 5? Yup it's from paper that was distributed on last gathering, i just received few minutes before the gathering started, so total i only read 4 pages haha. But from these 4 pages, its very interesting, it talks about the tentmaker who struggle to tell the truth why he stays on undeveloped country while he was coming from rich country with stable job and life. I found out that I will be on the same boots as him as for I am now haha. So what's the solution? Well please continue to read on ^_^

After little discussion, the time given to Pastor Jeff to tell us what is happening now. One thing that he said that "There is no end for preparation" doesn't matter how much time we spent for our preparation, it will never completed. So he challenged us to set deadline for our preparation, not just "one day" or "next 10 years", but set achievable date (like what we do in our resolution - SMART). By doing so, we have urgency to try to complete the plan, at least we know what we are we doing.

Then Q&A time.

One brother asked about this, then how we could know whether we are ready or not? First is self assessment, we need to be able to identify our readiness, by what? by our conviction, we go to plant church is by our conviction, not because our shepherd told us to go, in the end, there will be only God and ourselves out there to do the work :) Second, ask someone who knows us well, not someone who hate us so that person will tell us to go, nor our family/close friend who prevent us to go because they will miss us, but someone who loves our God and HIS Kingdom.

Matthew 28:18-20
Then Jesus came to them and said, “All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. 19 Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, 20 and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.

God Bless ^_^