Sadness

Last Wednesday, i watched Inside Out. This movie is showing how human emotion could affect behavior and characteristic development. There are 5 characters, which only 2 that could be considered as main character, which are Joy and Sadness. As their name, they bring the emotion when they touch the memory ball. And to cut story short, the value I got from this movie is, through Sadness there is a true Joy, while Joy only last for that moment only.

God also remind me about whatever Sadness that happen on my life, probably something didn't go as I planned thus it bring Sadness, but the reason of the sadness actually is a true Joy. God want me to experience those kind of difficulty in my life, in order to shape me to become like what He has plan for me, to become like Jesus Christ, and this song suddenly ringing in my brain just now (sorry it is in bahasa)

Bagaikan bejana siap dibentuk,
Demikian hidupku ditanganMu
Dengan segala urapan kuasa RohMy
ku dibaharui selalo

Ku mau sepertiMu Yesus
disempurnakan selalo
Dalam segenap jalanku
Memulikan namaMu

John 3:16New International Version (NIV)

16 For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

This verse also come to my mind, that God even He so loved His Son, but He gave His Son to died on the cross, for us to have true Joy thru eternal life.

I hope this could encourage anyone who currently have difficulties in life, that as long as we trust in Him, there will be true Joy after all those difficulties. Amen. God Bless 

25 August 2012 Another Blessed Day

Yo, long time haven't make a post :) I have some urgent things need to settle down, what are those? I will let you know some time in the future :)

This post will be a bit longer, so if you really want to read, perhaps you can get some coffee (in case it really boring make you fall asleep haha).

Today was starting with another Holy War (Rage of Bahamut that currently I play), continue with beating Diablo III haha until 12.00pm. But again, perhaps I repeated the same mistake, I wrongly calculate my time, thus i was late for Intercede session at 2pm. What is Intercede session? It is a prayer meet, basically only few people, to pray for our community needs, can be related to the sermon topics, but can be different depends how Holy Spirit lead you to pray for other things. The session normally about 15 minutes, could be longer, and I found myself interested to join another Intercede session ^_^ I will inform the PIC hehe

At 3.30pm we start our service by praise and worship. Here I experienced another wonderful Praise and Worship. I enjoyed the Praise, I do hope it will be longer, every time during Praise time, I hope we could sing Praise song a bit longer, like what I experienced in Cambodia 2010. There we praise the Lord, same song like today Praise, The Time Has Come, but over there, the song last about 15 minutes, and everyone is jumping - enjoying the Praise time. Don't worry, I have another mission to bring people to jump while praising, not only in Church Conference, but we also could make the same atmosphere wherever and whenever we are when are praising the Lord. Amen ^_^

Then sermon is about Giving. Though Mike give us a homework to count how many blessing we have receive from God during this week, but I have better homework for myself (or maybe the reader as well if interested ^_^). Instead of counting God blessing upon us, why don't we count how many people we have blessed this week? The value is, no matter God blessed us or not, we are still have to be a blessing to the people surround us, not because God bless us then we bless people (though God always be the one who bless us, but some time we take it for granted thus we don't see God blessing). Take time to ponder in your heart, do I seek the reward first or do I seek people happiness? ^_^ I believe God blessing upon us is uncountable, and we need to have faith that God always blessing us, thus believing with that FAITH, we could be a bless to people.

For dinner, we mixed around from different LG. Amazingly, we have a fruitful time some my friends are sharing about their value. But please pardon me, I dislike being asked anything about relationship, for me, to be honest, this is a boring repeated question that normally being asked around every 4-6 months. I prefer being ask for a case, so we can discuss from our individual perspective, perhaps something like, "what do you think about .. if ..". To summarize our discussion session, I believe the reader knows about this, but I will just saying again, perhaps some of you don't know. Relationship is not just filling each other weakness, but 1 + 1 could be more than 2, relationship is to support each other growth into better person. And if you are still curious what sort of girls I'm looking for, it's all about support and care. Normally i will testing by compatibility first, along the way, I will see whether if she cares for me or not, this opinion could argue, some people will say, "how to care if not into relationship", but for me, if you don't care about me, I cannot even think about relationship, because I see Relationship as a prepration stage for Marriage. But of course "Sparks" also have some part to consider.

However, we should not worry about our relationship, we are SINGLE for a PURPOSE ^_^ God created us, God gives us life, everything is unto God, so I believe God also have plan for our life partner, let's not focus on this topic instead, we should focus what we could do in God Kingdom ^_^ what we can contibute in God Kingdom ^_^ what we can serve in God Kingdom ^_^ subsequently, God will reveal the person to us, our destined life partner. Let us put this problem to God, we should not worry about this problem, this is God problem ^_^ (This statement is one of the point from Peter Truong Ministry on 21 August 2012)

God Bless ^_^

SuperNatural Conference 2012

At last i have time to share about SuperNatural Conference 2012 (19-20 May), luckily D3 server down so have spare time haha. For this conference, I have setup 3 expectations, Disciple Maker - Life partner - and Guitarist in LG, however what God revealed to me were different things or rather His priority is different than mine haha.

More less this year conference, focus more on teaching, honestly a bit boring, i struggled to keep awake, even with eating candy, still the dreamland is tempting than stay awake haha, but in the middle of the teaching in Session 2, afternoon session, God showed me a glimpse of picture about LG new grouping. It was like a pie chart, divide into 3 equally, and I will be served in 1 piece and there is potential for the group that I joined in to grow BIG.

Another encounter would be first session on the second day. Pastor Rick Steward talked about to reach out there instead of enjoying with our small community. From what I see, it's correct, people tendency feel comfortable then don't want to leave comfort zone, focusing more into bonding with brothers and sisters, but forgetting that we supposed to reach out. I, myself, really wants to reach out, to challenge pre-believer about what is the truth about Jesus, but still facing struggle with the courage, but I will not give up, this is the challenge that I accepted as Jesus disciple.

Last thing about SuperNatural Praise and Worship. On Sunday night, I felt like the floor downstairs (we sat at 1-2 levels higher than the base floor), seems like so awesome, so I just went down, praising and worshiping God. My Spirit was so itchy to jump for God, as we always sat at upper levels for 2 days, barely can jump until my heart content. And thanks God also, my LG also feel the same ^_^ My last word, keep your passion burning for God, let the Spirit guide you, if you want to jump, just jump, don't be shy, you are jumping because of God.

God Bless ^_^

Weekly verse

Around 4-5 weeks ago, I have been challenged by my shepherd, to send weekly daily verse to my LG Group, BeAT.

The first excuse I throw out, was because I did my devotion from OT, so it's kind in orderly verse, because he told me to send SMS of what i have done in my devotion. But again, I still accept it knowing nothing what verse to send to the group.

Sometimes I sent what verse that been spoken to me during the previous week, kind of sharing with the group the week after it, of course I cannot share before I heard it, not doing prophecy here :p

Sometimes I did not encounter any verse, I was blank in Monday morning, just after my devotion, then I wonder what verse should I shared, at that time, I let Holy Spirit spoke to me, I read some verses until Holy Spirit notify me that this is the verse. So I did sent it ^_^

I pray that I will always faithfully doing this weekly verse, not because I was challenged, not because I want to heard good reply from my group, but I want to share the Words that being spoken to me to my group, to bless them as each of them start the new working day in the week, Monday. I hope that the Words will enlighten their mood, their attitude and most important their spiritual life to always help them in whatever situation they might encounter during the week ^_^

God Bless

Todays Devotion

Woo I admit, it's very difficult to spare time to read Connect daily, I myself have my own devotion time, which is reading Old Testament 1 chapter/day, so in order not to crash each other, I set my Connect devotion at night ^_^ but yeah, there will be a miss, for example, yesterday I fall asleep before my Connect devotion (forgot about it >_<), so have to make up for it :)

And for you readers, who are interested to have devotion together, I would like to have devotion together also, I want to hear other people thought also hehe so let me know if you are interested to have devotion together ok, 3-4 people are good numbers ^_^

Oh there are interesting statement about disciple during sermon 24 March 2012, here what it says
Understanding bible but without application : a smart sinner
Apply bible value without understand what it is : a saint superficial
Apply bible value and understand it : growth + revival
No application and understanding : backsliding

Let us apply bible value and understand the value behind it, so we can grow mature in spiritual life, not only mature in real life, but also mature in spiritual life, by Reading - Sharing - Applying the Words of God daily.

God Bless

Today's Devotion Joshua 1:6-9

So continue from yesterday, as I will do it daily. In each day, there will be 3 questions to be chosen, but it's not necessary to answer all of them, so I choose which one I have encountered with God ^_^

Reflect on the authority God has placed upon your life and how you 're using that authority to bless those around you?

During LG prayer meet last week, I felt that GOD wants me to pray for my LG, but at that time I felt discouraged, I tried to gather my courage to speak out and I keep praying in Spirit, but in the end, I still discouraged. Yet, I believe GOD never leave me, He never forsaken me. GOD I pray that if the next chance coming up, give me courage and strength to pray out loud for my LG and be a blessing for my LG. Thank you GOD ^_^

Just now I mentioned GOD never leave me correct? Today, I encountered another powerful event with GOD in my office. Today is my review, err nothing related with salary, I prefer to know what my progress so far after last review, so here is the review. My boss was very patience with me, he explained what feedback he has received from my other colleagues, it's about my social skill, my technical skill, he quite assured that although there are still some rooms for improvement, but my technical skill is better than last year.

So back to my social skill, if you know me, perhaps you will say that I'm not very talkative person, Sugix is nice, Sugix is very spiritied, etc, but I tell you, in office, what you will is not me, but another me. In office, I'm easily agitated in communication, thus almost all of the time I made a hole in other person and I don't like to answer query from my colleagues including my PM. Surprised isn't it? Well, but my colleagues do feedback to my boss that outside work, Sugi is nice person, just when in working environment, Sugi become another person, difficult to approach, its like you step in my area, then prepare to get shot :)

So which one is the real Sugix? The one that you see every LG (3 hours) + service (3 hours) + activity (6hours), compare with my working state which is 40 hours/week.. hahahaha

To be honest, actually I'm aware about it, but you might ask me then why you still doing it? I don't have answer for that also, I did tried to control my emotion but no matter how hard I tried, there will be an outrage. But today is special, I don't know, it's like GOD use my boss to specially talk to me, soon after the review, I suddenly changed, I become more patience, I could explain more to my colleagues, normally I will shout bla bla bla. Another mystery also happen, my PM asks me to change code, normally I will shout "hah? why change again? that one is difficult, it won't be finish by today" (with irrating face), but today I was listening to my PM explanation, and do it without any COMPLAINT, wow that was a miracle.

Another feedback from my boss is to reduce to open facebook, and those similar to that one. Actually I kind not addicted to it, but it's I the one who choose to open it. I pray that God will empower me with Spirit of self-control, so I be better person in office and be a guidance for my juniors ^_^

Otw to my home, I asked God, am I capable to switch my working state with the real me that nice person, GOD says as long as you hold on My Way, you should be able. Back then during interview, my boss asked me, are able to change your working state, I answered hmm slowly. But in the end, GOD is the one who switched my working state ^_^ Praise God.

It seems I have surrendered my technical skill to God long time ago, but I still hold my social skill in office with my way, not with God's Way. I pray that God will empower with the Spirit of love & patience so I can build better relationship with my colleagues.

Galatian 5:22-23
But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law.

God Bless

Today's Devotion 28 Mar 2012 (Joshua 1:1-5)

As our LG started to read Connect today, I want to share with you, readers, about it.


There is an interesting question, "how do you overcome the overwhelming feelings that sometimes come when going on a mission trip?"

Back then in 2010, when I was a new believer to join Cambodia Mission Trip, I feel hesitated on myself for the first time, partly that I eager to join mission trip but the another me was no confident to go, some more I know nothing about Mission Trip. But in the end, I decided to go, why? Don't know I just do it rather than worrying. So even for now, sometimes I still hesitated about task being assigned by God, even small task, let say this morning, I saw a man, asking direction where to go Tanjong Pagar Complex, he is asking the person in front of me, well I happen heard what he had asked and know where it is, but the funny thing is, instead of helping him, I began to think should I tell him or leave him alone? But deep inside my heart, I know I should tell him, so I just do it.

So if I wonder whether I should do or not, but in fact i know that it's the right thing to do, I will do it ^_^

Matthew 6:33

33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.

God Bless